nvm
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
forget it. i look stupid i need to stop.
i can't let myself feel this way about you anymore.
my feelings flip flop. like for a bit I'm like loveuloveuloveuu but then a thought or memory will pop in my head and i'll get a feeling in my tummy and be like :\
i can't sleep and i keep getting these weird tingles
i feel so alone every friday night
you make me feel like home
so i tell you you're mine.
you're gonna be fucking mine ok?
just fucking be mine.
we're wasting time not speaking and wasting what was, what could and what will be something amazing.
fucking letting go made me feel better for a bit and then i saw a picture of us on my camera and everything fucking came back.
when things are meant to be they always come back. i cant come back to you because i never left you. you left me. you left me when i needed you and everything got so fucked up. i still need you baby. i don't wanna hurt you anymore, i just want to love you and kiss you and hold you and let you know I'm there for you no matter what.
no matter what.
but maybe i should just forget all the good things and just remember the bad
;\
but i miss too many things about you to do that.
your smile
your laugh
your cute freckles
how your nose fit perfectly in mine
and so much more
i don't wanna love you anymore booba make it stop :(
please? please just make it stop. make the small piece of hope of i have left go away :(
i hate being in love with you because it gives you the power to hurt me,
and thats just what you do.
i miss how we fit together. I've been looking for that in someone else and i can't find it. i look for you in other people, which is pathetic, but no ones good enough.
My sister -_-
she has so many problems already and she keeps doing all these fucking drugs and shit which is just making things worse in the long run.
this is such bullshit, my family expects me to be there for her when she isn't even helping herself. I have shit to focus on myself, like i can't keep going out of my way for her when i have to work as hard as i can in school, especially this semester.
