Tuesday, July 5, 2011
you can't only love me when you want to.
that's how you lost me.
i feel like i'm waiting for something but i dont know what it is. like i feel like somethings about to happen.
sex is like laughter
do it differently with different people
sometimes you feel sick after.
listening to this really crazy good unheard of music from the UK.
i just don't knowwww, if we love eachota fo sure,
but it sounds like we do.
Remember we were friends?
you were my best friend actually. ^ above everyone else.
but times have changed now i guess.
i've been going through a lot of conflicting emotions lately. with my friends, with guys, and with family.
friendwise, i feel bad that i've replaced my best friend, but it's how i feel.
like, brianna, i love her, but all she talks about is this guy, and it's so annoying. like i know you're excited, but shit.
and lluvia, she's so cute, and she's such a good friend, and i see her like every day, and we never fight, and she never pisses me off, and she's always there for me.
then guys, i hooked up with this guy matthew, and i'm like strangely super attracted to him, and it's really odd. like he's definitely not the hottest guy i've ever seen, but i'm drawn to him, it's weird. but anyways, we were talking for a few weeks, and then i saw him at another party and blah blah blah. and then he was like oh i might have been leading you on to hook up more, and im sorry, i'm not sure if that's what i want outof this. and i was like lolk.
then there's this guy fausto, who would have the same last name as my ex boyfriend -_- , but i dunno about him. he's really cute, but he has 0 swag. and he acts like he's tough shit when he really isn't. i dunno about him.
and then there's my ex.
who i miss a lot sometimes, and then sometimes i don't want to talk to him at all.
it's just frustrating that i still have feelings for him after all the bullshit that we've been through.
i don't really know what to do.
and then family wise, my sister got kicked out, and she keeps being a penis, and her and my mom keep fighting about bullshit.
it's so annoying.
but me and my mom have gotten a lot closer, so that's okay i guess.
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I think I love you. We own the night by Selena Gomez casually describes my feelings perfectly.
When we are together it's the time of our lives
We can do whatever be whoever we like
Spend the weekend dancing cause we sleep when we die
Dont have to worry bout nothing cause we own the night.
Can't sleep. Thinking about so much shit. Why do I even still give two shits about you?
